Day 14 comes from my sweet friend Ashley. I met Ashley as a missionary, and she is one of my favorite people in the entire world. She was our family away from family, and always knew exactly what promptings to follow to take care of us. I love her SO much. She has the funniest kids in the world, and is such an example of everything I want to be when I grow up. You might even remember her post two years ago about grieving her sweet baby boy gone too soon, and how they buried him on Valentine’s Day. I love her reflections of love on that experience again two years later:
“I wrote a Days of Love post two years ago, right before my angel son had his first birthday. I was currently pregnant again and in the throes of morning sickness. I was grieving for my Angel Gary, excited at the prospect of having a baby in my arms again, and terrified I was going to lose that baby too. The fear was very real and I started to get down on myself about it. I remember telling my parents once that if faith dispels fear, then I must have almost no faith, because I was so afraid. Through talking with them and my own contemplation, I realized that fear isn’t shameful or wrong.
Fear is natural. Fear led me to hope. I feared losing a fourth pregnancy/baby, but hope led me try to get pregnant again. Some days I fear that death is the end, but I hope in eternal life and eternal families. I am able to find joy in this sometimes scary world because of hope. If I feel overwhelming grief and pain, I hope for peace and comfort. To me hope is Love. It is special and sacred to me that my oldest son was buried on Valentines Day. I love him dearly and hope with all my heart to hold him again someday.”